有些事 一转身就是一辈子

有些人一直都没机会见
等有机会了 却又犹豫了
相见不如不见

有些事一直没机会做
等有机会了
却不想再做了

有些话埋藏在心里好久 没机会说
等有机会说时
却说不出口了

有些爱一直没机会爱
等有机会了
却已经不爱了

有些人很多机会相见的
却总找借口推脱
想见的时候已经没机会了

有些话有很多机会说的
却想着以后再说
要说的时候 已经没机会了

有些是有很多机会做的
却一天一天推迟
想做的时候却发现没机会了

有些爱给了你很多机会
却不在意没在乎
想重视的时候已经没机会爱了

人生有时候 总是很讽刺
一转身可能就是一世
说好永远的
不知怎么就散了
最后自己想来想去
竟然也搞不清楚 当初是什么原因分开彼此的
然后 你忽然醒悟
感情原来是这么脆弱的
经得起风雨 却经不起平凡
风雨同船 天晴便各自散了
也许只是赌气
也许只是因为小小的事

幻想着和好的甜蜜
或重逢时的拥抱
那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方还傻笑着
该是多美的画面
没想到的是
一别 竟是一辈子了

于是
各有各的生活
各自爱着别的人
曾经相爱 现在已互不相干
即使在同一个小小的城市
也不曾再相逢
某一天某一刻 走在同一条街
也看不见对方
先是感叹 后来是无奈

也许你很幸福
因为找到另一个适合自己的人
也许你不幸福
因为可能你这一生
就只有那个人真正用心在你身上
很久很久 没有对方的消息
也不再想起这个人
也是不想再想起这些

学会珍惜身边的每一个人
或许那都会成为记忆的美好






P.S. Thank you Min Zhi =)

人总是自私的

自私
为自己的利益而伤害其他人
不管任何的手段
即使是关心你的人
因为自私
破坏了一切对人家说是美好的东西

今晚对一个人来说
可能是一种解脱
可是对另外一个人说却可能是一种折磨
我经历过
我知道那种滋味
除非一切都还不是很深
不然 事情就有够麻烦的咯

自私可以分成很多种
学业上的, 马路上的, 感情上的... 等等
就是会有这样的人
或者说
每个人都是自私的
不管你觉得自己是多么的谦虚多么的好
在某种方面
你真的会为了你自己而自私起来

可能你的所作所为没有得到任何人的赞同
可是我相信你也有自己这样做的苦衷


想回

我也是 自私的

true or false?

oops..
Didn't blog for quite some time..
Anyway..

Any of you will give money to those who suddenly come to your seat while you're having your lunch or interrupt you from a conversation or bug you like hell even though you ignore them or push you if you ignore them and tell you that they are from XXX charity organization and in need of donations to help the disabled?

Frankly speaking, last time i do get soft-hearted when facing situations like this and its like as though they've hypnotize you to grab your wallet and take out some money to donate.. But nowadays.. There's too many too many cases of swindles and yet we're still unaware of it...

I was put into a situation like this last week.. Was in a bakery shop and suddenly this lady came in holding a magazine telling us about the kids that are forced to move to other places.. And now they need the money to find a place for the orphans to settle down.. Yes.. I symphatize the kids but I know all the while my parents gave all forms of donation to charitable organization that are reputable and reliable..

So.. Without any identification evidence of herself but holding with only the magazine, honestly I'm not convinced at all so i told her.. "I'm sorry but my parents all the while had contributed a lot.." then i turned and pay.. Guess what she did.. She pushed me and eh in a rude way and continue whatever she's suppose to say.. I was holding a one ringgit note and I said this is all I left.. I expected some "oh then a its ok la.. Thanks for your time" and guess what I got..
"oh its ok la, thank you for your donation" and took the one ringgit note out of my hand...

Sorry to be rude la but.. Its so freaking rude! Nobody teach you to be polite one is it? Come on la.. Donation is depend whether one is willing to donate or not.. Not just take it like this..

I don't mind if you really take the money and really contribute to what the orphans need.. But if you took the money and kept it.. One day you'll get strike by lightning..

Everyone.. Just be aware and don't give money to them that easily.. Some might just get sympathy of you and take the so called donation to do other things..

Fate

When everything is fated..
No matter how much you've struggle to fight for what you believe in..
Fate still wins the bet..
In the end, its not yours anymore..
Your lost, became victory of another person..
and that person,
Holding up the trophy and boast in front of you..
That dissatisfaction..
Initially, it's a very strong feeling and indeed affects every pieces in your life..
but sooner or later.. Its fading..
You stop caring whatever is going on..
and this...
proves one thing..

You're getting over what had been going on lately..
and
its the right move for you..
to move on with your life..
Regardless how deeply you're hurt before..
The best moment..
shall forever be buried in the deepest place in the heart..
Never again to be brought up..

Living in the past its not a good feeling at all..
The only thing should be reminisced its the beauty of the memory..
not the dark part of it..


To CY,
Thank you for all your advices and accompaniment.. frankly speaking all these helped me a lot =)
I appreciate everything.. =)

To Pow,
Seriously, I don't want to be consider in your figure of "friends that live in the past" anymore..
like my friend said.. time is all I need.. and I appreciate everything.. =)

To all my other friends,
Thank you for being with me and support me...
I wouldn't have done it without you all..
Although its not a 100% completed thing yet, and of course.. it won't be 100%..
There is that scar there that will never disappear..
but.. I'm trying my best to cover it..


I'm glad to have friends like all of you..
I appreciate it..

I'm back =)

Trials over...
Well..
I have no idea whether to be happy or sad... haha..
I think I screwed up my Maths and Bio..
sigh...

Anyway...
So..
Its holiday now.......
and...
I've no idea what to do.....

Sleep.....................................
Movies....................................
Karaokae..................................
Skating.......................................
Bowling........................................

What else..

OH!!!!
I saw this dress with CY...
So nice................... I tried it and so fitting... /__\
I want T_T
Sigh....................
Its.......... expensive..................... (actually not the price problem...)
HMMMMMM......................
and stupid me.........
forgot to take picture..................... AHHH...

Devastating day......................................................................
or..
Happy day? cuz trials is over..
I don't know...........

Sigh..

Good luck peeps

Its a Saturday..
One more day to trials..
Nothing can go into my mind....
Please absorb something, my dear brain..

Good luck everyone..






Happy birthday Andy =)

Butterfly

A cocoon just broke open on a wet morning

A butterfly crept its way out of the cocoon

It inched its way out slowly, but with lots of strenght and effort as it was hard to get out

The rain stopped, the sun came out

The butterfly saw this and was ecstatic

It saw the beautiful swifts zipping through the air, the mighty eagles soaring above the cloudy kingdoms and it longed to be part of the blue sky

It forced its way out, struggled to force its frail body out

As it pushed itself, its wet and soft wings which were not fully developed or dried, were placed under great stress

Its body was placed under tension and stress that it was never intentionally meant to undergo yet, in pursuit of reaching its goal of flying in the air, the butterfly relentlessly pushed itself way over its limit

As a result, its body was tired,
its limbs were strained,
its wings were torn, tatterred and broken

In the end, it did get itself out of the coccoon in a short time

It did look up into the blue sky and
feel the calm breezes

Yet, it would never be a part of the sky ever again, as it had forgotten the little bits that was important in its ability to fly, when it was stubbornly chasing the larger goal





P/S : Thank you QMC =)

I'm dead, you hear me?

How long do I still need to take this??

Why do I even care??

Why waste my time doing things that won't be appreciated by others and in return get hurt??

Why do I still so stubborn??

Why do I need to help you cover up??

Why do I still want to defend you from what others say??

Why do I have to wear that mask??

What on earth am I thinking??

She's happy, you're happy

How about me?

"Sacrifices have to be made"

I've made enough sacrifices!! I'm not strong like you think!!

I'm not you!!!

All because of you

I'm dead,

you hear me?

I'M DEAD

SATISFY??

Funny the way it is..

It's funny how a person can break your heart,

and you can still love them with all the little pieces...

Swinging around the past

Aww.. How cute are they..

We just finished Maths DI when we walked down the stairs and saw this..

A little girl and little boy from Sri KL were holding each other's hands while playing around the swing =) how cute..

but they became shy when they saw us looking at them.. and started pushing each other (ok.. this part they are not cute anymore.. haha..)

Reminiscing the past..
This reminds me of a lot of things..

Suddenly have the urge to cry..
but tears just won't come out..

Perhaps.. the tears are all dried up.. or..
they couldn't find their way down my cheek.. or..
I finally found that crying makes no point anymore..
Either one will do.. I suppose..

I can still picture their laughter and cute little smiles in my mind...

resembling ours..

Stop hallucinating

I always thought that I can walk through it without any obstacles
I always thought I can be strong
I always thought I'll be fine

I realized
Its tired to act

I admit
I'm not strong at all

but

the main thing is

I'll continue to try my best


Dream is over..
Stop hallucinating.. Whatever I'm thinking now is not real.. so..

Should come back to reality now..




P/S: Thank you Min Zhi =)

Hypocrite

Me = hypocrite

satisfy?

Its Tough

Anxiety filling in my mind..

I can do nothing but just quietly support behind you..

Stay strong..



I hope..

Everything will be alright...

Heartless

I'm drowning into the deep ocean..

The scary deep and cold water..

Can someone..

Come and take me away..

When a Girl..

When a GIRL is quiet... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not fine at all.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Strange feeling..

We make them cry who care for us..

We cry for those who never care for us..

And we care for those who will never cry for us..



I never want to believe this until I face it..

This is life..

最幸福的事 #3

He skipped classes and followed the brother everywhere he went..
Trying to find out is this some sort of set up..
Although he tried his best for not being noticed that easily..
However, the brother was smart enough to know that..

One day..
The brother stopped while walking in the alley,
"Don't have to hide anymore, just come out.. I know you've been stalking me for the past one week.."
"How did... you.."
"My father is a detective my dear boy, of course I know all these. So.. what you want to know?"
"The truth.."
"Didn't she already told you?"
"I don't believe in what she said.. She don't tell lies.. and she's never good in lying.. From the way she spoke to me.. and everything just came out of blue.. I really don't think what she told me was true.. and.. I don't see you two hanging around together outside except that you go to her house everyday.. "

"Ahh... You're a smart boy.. I've told her not to do this.. but she insisted so.. Alright.. I'll just open everything up to you.. I'm her step brother.. an orphan who was adopted by her parents when I was young.. Few weeks ago.. She came up to me and asked for my help with all these set ups.. She said.. Since the day you and her were together, she've been having nightmares of you being hurt.. She thought it was nothing until few weeks back.. Remember that incident of you fell down the stairs during the blackout in school and that incident of you being slashed while being robbed? Believe it or not, she dreamt that before.. and now.. she's believing that whatever she've dreamt of will become true.. so.. she thought that the only solution is to leave you.. as soon as possible.. before you get hurt another time again.. "

He stunned there..
"Are you kidding me? Is this true? Where is she now.. I want to talk to her..."
"You might have trouble calling her.. She didn't want to pick up any calls now except mine.. "

He gave the brother that look..

"...... Alright alright.. I'll help you to ask her out.. She's being anorexic nowadays... Didn't eat well, sleep well.. She's been traumatized by all these.. You make sure you comfort her.. I don't want my little sister live in all these.. okay?"
"I promise you, bro.."

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She walked down to the garden near her house where her brother was supposed to meet her up there..
but she saw him..
Without second thought she turned around and started running...
"HEY!!! STOP THERE! STOP RUNNING! LISTEN TO ME FIRST BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO RUN!!!"
He shouted with his full strength..
She stopped.. and turned..
He walked to her slowly.. hold her hands and direct her to a bench..

"Dear.. your brother told me everything that has been happening recently.."
She looked up.. surprised.. "Bro, you're so dead.." she muttered..
"I... I'm sorry.."
"Hey.. Its ok.. Don't worry about me ok? I love you.. and I want to be with you.. That's all I always wanted.. You and me, we are the perfect match ok? Dear.. I really love you.. You meant the world to me... Don't leave me again... I've suffered enough.."

Tears filled her eyes... Without her noticing, tears started rolling down her cheek..
"I love you too.. I really do.. But.. Everything that I've dreamt of started to show up in reality.. I don't want anything bad happening to you..."
"I'll be fine.. With you by my side, nothing else matters.. ok? I just want to be with you.. Come.. Come back to me will you? I'll take care of you.. no matter what.."
She nodded..
He throw his arms towards her, hug her as tight as possible.. and didn't want to let go..
He promised no matter what he'll take care of her.. as long as she's happy.. he'll do whatever it takes to put a smile on her face..
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Everything was going on pretty fine..
They continue their life, studying... keeping up the spirit and love in each other..
A morning kiss everyday made their day...

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She dreamt again.. and this time.. She didn't have the chance to warn him or walk away from it.. She.... have to face it..

They're on a school trip to a hospital by bus.. It takes quite some time to reach the hospital because it was situated up the hill.. She took a nap in his warm hug.. and here it goes again.. the dream..

He was seated near the window.. and before he realized that she woke up and switched place with him, "BANG"..
The next thing he saw was her face covered with blood and glasses shattered all around her..

While going up the hill, a lorry from the opposite side was travelling down in high speed and can't make a perfect turn and knocked the bus.. Coincidently, it knocked the part where both of them are sitting..

"Oh my......... god....!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!! AMBULANCE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
He panicked... kept holding her up trying to keep her talking..
"ANSWER ME DEAR!!! DON'T FALL ASLEEP... YOU'LL BE OKAY.. Oh my goddddd!! Why did you do that..."
"I................. I.......... dreamt it again............ dear....................... I know its happening................. soon.... I've.............. to............ save you.........................." she answered in a weak tone..
He cried.. out loud...
"Why are you so...... dear... why...."

"I.................... I don't think................ I can wait for............... the ambulance............. I............ just.......... want to say............................ I love you................"
"I love you too dear! I LOVE YOU TOO!!! STAY STRONG!!!"

With her last breath... She whispered to him in a very weak tone... and passed out..



"我..最幸福的事.. 就是当过你的天使.."



-End-

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最幸福的事 #2

...... she received a call..

After a 2 minutes conversation with the anonymous on the other side of the phone,
her expression changed..
"What happened my dear?"
She didn't answer him.. facing the ground.. making him more anxious..
He walked in front of her and stopped.. holding her shoulder..
"Dear.. Look at me.. Tell me what happened alright? I'm really worry about you.."



"I... I think I should go back home now... as in.. my real home.. I need some time to be alone.. Sorry dear.. I'll get back to you as soon as possible..k.."



She left, leaving him behind filled with curiosity and anxiety..


He waited for her call..


1 hour...
2 hours....
2 and a half hours....
3 hours....

Time passed really really slow without her..
Refreshing his memory, he started to think..
Who was that on the other side of the phone..
Why the smile that she put up every single minute disappear so quickly..
He never seen her like this before..


All the questions kept arising and he can't stand it anymore..
He decided to call her.. instead of waiting for her call..

"Hey guys, I'm not free now.. Please leave your message and I'll get back to you a.s.a.p yea..."

Listening to her sweet and cheerful voice recorded for the voicemail box..
He became even worried..
Knowing that he cannot reach her as she off her phone...

"Maybe she just need more time.. She'll call back in awhile.. I'll finish up my things and wait her at the hostel..."


He murmured in heart..

"There's only one thing two do three words for you..I love you.."
His ringtone woke him up.. He didn't realized that he fell asleep while waiting for her..


"Hey.. I'm so sorry that I call you up so late.. "
"Nono.. Its ok.. Are you alright? Where are you now.. I miss you a lot.."
"Can you come down to the park now?"
"Sure, give me 5 minutes ya.. Be careful there.."


He ran to her as fast as possible and gave her a tight hug..
"My dear.. Is everything ok? What happened? Can you tell me now?"

"I...... Me... I... I'm leaving you.. I'm sorry..."

He stared at her blankly..
"What?"
"I said I'm leaving you... I don't love you anymore.. Don't find me anymore.. I'm sorry... Bye.."
He pulled her back..
"No.. You explain to me properly... Tell me the truth.. k?"
"This IS the truth.. Its over.. I'm sorry.."

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She ran as fast as she could to a black car..
Leaving him stunned there..
Kept telling herself not to look back...
She didn't want to do this...
but she have to..
Tears filled up her eyes.. and rolling down her cheek..

"I'm sorry my dear... I love you.. I really do.. "

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"She's just joking right... She'll come back tomorrow... Everything will be fine..."
He didn't want to believe and want to ask her again.. properly tomorrow..
But he was just informed that she dropped out of school this morning..

He never listen to class.. All he want to do now is just to find out what is going on..

"Brain cells are.............." The lecturer's voice faded and was taken over by the voice in his heart..

Without second thought, he just slammed out the lecture theatre and ran straight to her hostel..

"What the.. "
When he reached there, he saw another guy holding her hands and walked into her hostel..

He shouted her name from the other end of the building.. She didn't response.. as though she has expected his arrival and got closer to the guy..

He ran towards her.. "You're joking isit? Who's this guy?"

"I told you we're over, he's my new boyfriend and we're leaving to Australia.. Stand aside please.. I need to take out my luggage.."

He cannot believe it with his own eyes.. She changed.. so quickly that he cannot recognize her anymore.. He let go.. and walked to his door..

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"You really shouldn't do this to him... even though there's a reason behind.."

"If I don't do this.. he'll not forget about me.. He deserve a better life.."

"He deserve the truth, girl.. I know it because I'm a guy.."

"Bro, you're on my side right? Just help me finish with this scene and we're off.."

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She thought her absence will give him a better life..

But she didn't know that he's serious in this relationship and he finds everything too sudden..

He decided to find out the truth....

Starting from that guy..............

最幸福的事 #1

Being very imaginative nowadays..
Why can't we just stay in fantasy world..
and never wake up....

Andy: "probably your parents will think that you're in coma and quickly send you to hospital... Its ok.. I'll bring fruit basket and visit you =x "

CY: "Yaya! then all the fruits gimme xD"

= = I can already imagine you 2 saying that... = =
By the way, we shall continue.. my erm.. crap story xD

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Being accepted by one of the local top medical universities bring her one step forward to realize her dream of being a gynaecologist ..
After long persuading, her parents finally nod their head for letting her to stay in the hostel near school..
so..
She's all on her own now..
Never did she realized that she'll meet him during orientation day..
She didn't know he was also being accepted and deeply in heart, she's screaming with joy..

All the while, he has been her crush during college period..
However, she just don't have the courage to express her feelings toward him..

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Its been a tiring day, being toured around the school, getting to know all the new faces.. and have been saying a lot of "Hi, I'm.... "

Back to the apartment opposite the school, dragging herself up the stairs to her unit..

She stunned suddenly.. she saw him.. just opposite her unit..

She screamed again in her heart of course..

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"She stays here too?? I thought she live nearby... wow.. Didn't know that I'll see her again.."

She never know that, he felt the same way towards her too.. just that he has a girlfriend and never want to link himself to the word 'betrayal'..


But now.. He's back to single.. and he wants to find an appropriate time to express his feelings.. Anxious whether or not she'll accept..


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One day after Microbiology class, he invited her out to the park..

Field is not really a romantic place to propose but.. he has no other choice as he don't own a vehicle in town.. no way to drive her to some beach or any high class places..

He: "Hey.. I.. I.........(after taking a deep breath) I've been thinking lately......"
She: (waiting anxiously.. blushing..)
He: "Will you be my girlfriend?"


She looked at him in aw..
The guy whom she do not expect words like this coming out from his mouth.. and.. one thing that makes her laugh is that.. he's shy and blushing too..

With a 'yes', they're now a cute little lovely couple..

Every morning before school,
She'll knock his door, giving him a morning kiss..
He tend to lie on his bed very long and didn't want to wake up.. so.. he have to give her the keys so that she can come in herself and wake him up..
A lovely breakfast every morning from her or him sometimes..
and together, they walk to school..

Although they're couple, but relationship doesn't affect their studies..
They worked hard for each other.. stay up late in the library to study together..
It's pretty sweet..


Life is always unpredictable...
One day........................
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I couldn't think of the other part of the story yet..
so.. wait for the sequel of it then xD

My god..
Why am I so lame = =

Follow CY and Pow too much.. Aih.. xD

I freaked out.. = =

AusEd & UKEd opposite our school was having education fair and they were giving out balloons and goodie bags

We didn't get to take the balloons (EY took 3 of them but 2 flew off.. hahaha xD) and look...


She tied in on my chair during lunch.. = = I looked like some little girl reading CSI = =...

Jere: "Bring on the birthday cake then can sing birthday song ad! HAHA!"

= = very funny Jere = =


I had a dream just now when I was taking a nap..
Its weird in some sense and in a way freaked me out!!
and.... its continual from a dream I dreamt very long ago!!!

People involved in my dream: Audrey, Yu Ling, Jun Kiat, my mom and me..

1st part of the dream:

Me, Audrey, YL and JK are investigators (Don't ask me why = = It goes that way.. probably I watched too much of CSI = =)

One day, we went to XXX restaurant for lunch after we solved a case..
Relieved, we sat down and had our lunch..
Its actually a very normal dream.. normal daily life behaviours of each and everyone of us..
The conversation between us probably is the factor of dragging the dream for some time..
*fast forward*
After we had our lunch, we went out of the restaurant and planning to head back to HQ..
but..
a fortune teller stopped us and asked to choose some papers with your fate of the month inside (something like that.. I couldn't really remember..)
The others got quite a good one except me.. (I couldn't really remember what is written inside.. but it goes something like this)
'There's something out there that you've to beware of, in terms of relationship and job" (I don't know how fortune tellers write their prediction = = please ignore = =)

End of 1st part of the dream... I thought it was nothing.. just some random dreams = = but...

2nd part of the dream..

On the way back to HQ, we received a call from HQ to interrogate some suspects involved in a 420 (homicide code for police xD ha ha.. too much of CSI.. wheee~ I feel so pro by saying 420 LOL) in XXX restaurant..

Audrey: "Its the same place we had our lunch.. possibly we already had any contact with the suspect.."
YL: "I didn't notice much about it.. its lunch time after all.."

U-turned, we went back there..

Right after we made our first step into the restaurant, waiters started to carry expensive dishes to us (precisely to me) and made us sit down.. It was really an unusual act.. made me feel that somehow the suspect expected our arrival..

Flowers (my favourite flowers), Chocolates....... all my favourites were given to me..

When I tried to peek into the kitchen door with whole bunch of stuff on me, I saw my mom = = I have no idea why is she in this restaurant.. She was like demanding the workers..
I went up to her..

Me: "What is going on ma? and why are you here?"
Mom: (I forgot what she said..) "...We received the orders from Mr. Khoo"

That was basically the last thing I heard..
After the name was mentioned, someone from behind used a cloth soaked with chloroform, suffocating me with that stinky smell.. and I passed out..

End of dream..

OK wait.. This might sound not that convincing that it was freaking me out.. but it REALLY was freaking me out.. My heart still beat very fast until now..
He knows a lot of thing about me and I felt like being stalked by someone = =
How ridiculous the storyline is..
I wonder what's the 3rd part of the dream..

"When I wake up, I found myself in some chamber, hands and legs are being tied to a chair.. looking very wan and sallow.. a figure in front of me........"

probably something like this.. = =

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! T.T

Fine.. I'll continue reading the CSI book xD whee~

Charity Carnival =)

Woohoooo~ Its the dayyy~ Charity carnival =)

Before the thing officially started, me, Ashlea & Fook Zhen have to walk all the way to Kim's house to get the cookies~
It was really tiring for me ok...... (because I don't exercise /_\)
and now.... lactic acid is filling my leg now.. T.T (Don't say a thing CY.. LOL I know your response xD)
by the way, GET WELL SOON KIM!!!! =)

After all those packing by G4 superb people, we started selling cookies~~~
using Ms. Loke's basket (and a fake flower twining in between.. kinda cacat.. but stillllllllllllll.. I twined it xD hahahahaha xD quiet JK = = I know your expression.. = =)


This was the 1st thing I saw~ haha.. The dunking machine!!!



She was screaming and screaming and screaming whenever someone was going to throw the ball and ALMOST hit the target.. hahaha.. but finally she fell into the water also.. hahaha.. It was really funny xD

While we were selling our lovely cookies made by Kimberley, Ashlea, Charlene, Audrey and Mark according to Ms. Loke's recipe, this girl she was selling the Vampire Den's ticket.. so... after LONG discussion and LONG begging Jere to buy, we (Jere, me and Ally) finally bought the tickets for RM3 each...

Jere, panic-striken, haha.. was forced to go with us xD

I was trying to take the vampire's picture and he kept hiding = = but I finally captured one without him realizing.. hahaha.. xD



While waiting for our turn............... haha..

It was afterall not scary... but.. DAMN FUNNY!!!!!! xDD

Jere... I must say that... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA you really made me can't stop laughing!!!!

Even I'm at home now.. I still can't forget what've happened!! hahaha.. You want to know? LOL...
Ok.. This is how it goes~
The sequence going into the vampire den: Fook, Ally, Me & Jere
Until one part we went to a dead end, and so the sequence has changed..
New sequence: Jere, me, Ally, Fook..
We were like holding each other's shoulder.. and out of sudden....
BOOO!!!!!
JERE JUMPED!!!!! and its not just one jump.. its few jumps! hahahaha.. (I'm sorry Jere..... xD)
I can't stop teasing him after the whole thing ends.. hahaha..

After that thing happened, the sequence was rearranged back into the initial one.. haha xD
The vampires.. = =
Instead of grabbing your leg... they 'molest' your leg... eeeeeee...... *shivered* hahaha..
We were one of the 100 participants, so we were given this RM10 Marybrown voucher..
hmm.. speaking about that.. where was mine? = =

I WANT TO GO GATEWAY TO HELL LARRRRRR!!!!!!!

Evil people.. when we were so semangat to go.. tickets were sold out.. as in.. they have to prepare to pack up as its nearing 1p.m... T.T

Look at the advertising paper and cry T.T

Was trying to take either Fook or Mark shooting basketball but failed = =

This was the time when Min Zhi and her friends came around to sell their J pop.. LOL.. I wanted to buy the MJ shirt.. T.T but.. not enough money... T.T Sorry Min Zhi.. hehe..

Jere: I want to go play arm wrestling! (very random)
Mark: (telling us) You think he can win a? = = (and because he was trying to persuade us to go pool = =)

Aih... this 2 ar.. really no comment xD

CY: OI! copyright ler! xD hahaha.. don't care you.. I still put xD CY helping a girl do manicure =)

and she did mine tooooo (I was forced to.. = = but.. luckily the final outcome is cute xD haha.. if not I'm gonna smack you = =)




After about 4 hours of walking and laughing, we went back to class (I went back half an hour late xD haha.. CY haven't finish drawing my nails.. Haha) It was Chem but Ms. Kwa was not teaching.. so instead of Chem.. its.. I-touch, laptop and chit-chatting time!

Oh oh oh oh!! and... its BASKIN ROBBIN TIME~


BR craze~~

Don't be surprised.. made by Suet Yoong, Ally and EY.. really can't blame... (you know what I meant do you xD hahahahahaha jkjk SY!!! xD I can imagine your expression!! You'll probably be like.. "Shu Sim........." HAHAHAHA xD)

In total, there were 16 cups of that xD (including those that was already been thrown into the dustbin = = JK picked it up... = =)I contributed 2 cups!!! of Jamaica Almond (or whatever it is spelled)!!!!! It was so damn nice xD

I had fun today... and has never enjoyed myself this much for the past few months...

was busy with exams, exams and exams... oh.. and not to mention the.. haha.. nevermind!

I love today! xD

P.S: Mama Matt... You ffk me today..... *slap* no cookies and no haunted house for me.. you evil mom = = who sleeps like pig.......... = =

Parents & Children

I can hear CY saying: "OMG!!! YOU BLOGGED!!!" = = Yesh.. I don't know why.. instead of Chemistry-ing I'm here blogging = =

Okay.. back to what I wanted to say..

Do your parents understand you?

Some might say yes and some might say no..

After listening to my friend's lifetime experiences..
I must say that..
I'm a very lucky girl who have both loving and understanding parents..

Everyone must have experienced this - What the Chinese refer it as '叛逆期' or in another word the rebellious period whereby
youngsters tend to be
totally against their parents' order
easily influence by friends
try out new things
shout at their parents
do only what they think they should do
and bla bla bla...

We are all 18 now.. (I'm soon to be xD)
Do parents still beat you up to spit out the truth? (I mean in normal family where parents don't abuse their kids)
I guess a NO?

I really wonder..
They might think that their act was just simply to teach their children..
but..
Did they ever consider their children's thought?
Let me make this clear
I'm not accusing any parents.. just trying to bring out what teenagers think..

For example, student X

Since young, her parents are both REALLY REALLY hardworking..
until a certain extend that whatever happens to the children in school.. They have no idea..
and..
hence, she don't have the habit of telling the incidents happening in school or what she thinks to her parents..
She became very independent.. and will stand up for herself in any circumstances if she finds that she's right..

Mother found out (which is a very small matter) that she'll be taking some sort of exam and at that moment, she blamed student X for not telling her..
(I'm not really sure for what's the reason behind it)
Just this simple and small matter.. and she got scolded.. and arguments started when same cases like this happen and she couldn't stand it anymore..

Are the actions by the Mother reasonable?
Well.. up to you to decide..

Another example, student Y..

Being good at studies also will be blamed?
Student Y does not have much time to do household chores as she put most of her time in studies.. She is the only daughter and have brothers that did not excel in their studies..
Mother came in..
"Don't think that you're good in studying then you're proud of it"

Okayy.. Don't all parents want their children to be good in studies?
Again..
Student Y simply wants to bring her handphone into the bathroom to on music and sing along..
With some sort of misunderstanding..
Mother started shouting at her.. even beat her up when she came out of the bathroom..

So.. should the Mother even do that?

Misunderstanding between parents and children is usually the main culprit of all these beating up and abusing cases..

RUN-AWAY FROM HOME cases are increasing day by day..

If you are the one experiencing things like this.. will you ever consider running away from home?
Parents should in another way try to understand what their children think..
not to say tolerate them thoroughly.. but both sides should tolerate each other..

I can hear Pow saying : '厌倦这个世界...'

Well.. Its true..
They will get sick of their situation and tired of being explaining things that parents never try to understand..

and eventually got tired of this world..

P.S.: Good luck studying people..

P.P.S.: Good luck G4 for tomorrow's Chem test! =)

You better be a nice month, August

Cy:' UPDATE YOUR BLOG LA!!!! = ='

Min Zhi: ' I can see spiderweb everywhere liaw.. update update!'

Haha.. Yes Ms Kor and Ms Chan.. updating now..
I haven't been updating my blog since a month ago..
All I could say is..
Many things changes in just one month.. including myself..

July was a torturing month for me..

and I hope August will be a better month..


July:


Experiencing the never ending depression makes me feel that life was never easy..

and.. frankly speaking.. I'm just 17 and there are much more out there for me..

I'm not sure I'm prepared for it or not..

I must say that..

I've been left out quite a lot from studies..

No longer that hardworking.. and just study for the sake of studying..

My body system also put up the emergency red light..

making me anorexic..

Depression is definitely the main culprit of all these..

However..

I always use.. 'Stress' as an excuse of all these..


August:


Start off with rather relaxing and happy weekend with Cy's birthday =)


Cy: ' Finally you blog about it '


We went to Sunway and we were late ><
Andy was trying to lie that he's alone there but failed = =
ND: 'We will be at the newly opened potato shop'
Cy: ' We? '
ND: 'oh oh.. Me I mean..'

Me and Cy already guess that there's something not right there.. and tadaaa..
Mr Pow showed up and ended up being pinched by Cy (so violent) xD

We headed off to Redbox and spent half of our day there..

Happy birthday Cy ^^ (you're older than me d xD) and
Nice to meet you, Pow =)

August started off really well for me..
I scored A for my Biology... I never get A for it before.. but here it is.. good improvement..
I hope I can keep it up..
Physics, I seriously have no idea.. Pray that Mr. John had his good mood while marking my paper..
Chemistry.. Tuesday will be the day.. Can't wait for Tuesday 10am to come..

Wednesday will be the Charity Carnival, I'll take as much picture and post it up here.
I guess I'll update on Wednesday =) (Remind me Cy and min zhi xD)

Before I end.. I must thank few person that helped me a lot during my depression period.. Thanks HY (my nice bro that comfort me a lot), Suet Yoong (good advisor and good listener), CY (make me awake, haha.. cheer me up), Sze Hui (my lovely sis called all the way from Miri to comfort me ) and Mama Matt (kept sending me emo songs... = = but also comfort me a lot =) thank you mom xD) also my classmates, Jk, Wan Dien, YL, Alicia, EY, MC, FZ,and Cow.

Thanks to all of you..

You guys made my day =)

I promise..

I'll hold on to my determination to realize my plan..

Unity through music

Was holding a sure-very-boring mood to this band performance "Let's Go Mamak........ Again!" by Inner Voices
Never thought it would be SUPERB!!!
err.. maybe too exaggerating..NICE!!! hahaha..

I admire the..
pianist, violinist (if he is more leng zai and thinner.. would be niceeee XD), trumpeter, saxophone player, gu zheng player (my sis's teacher), the percussionists, the drumer and the bass player!!!! XD (is actually the whole band consisting of 12 people XD)

Pianist - the 'shadow fingers'
OMG.. he is sooooooooooooo cool!!!! XD
haha..
the drumer and the bass player are very leng zai tooooo XD
violinist is super geng! XD

The performance is mainly about introducing the contemporary Malaysian music
hails the slogan 'unity through music'
The music is composed by Ken Hor (a very talented man!)
He got his idea from mamak
and the music includes the three main ethnic groups in Malaysia
also includes some aborigin used musical instruments
This definitely open my eyes to this contemporary music whereby the western instruments (bass, drums, saxophone, trumpet, violin, piano, flute, flugelhorn), chinese instruments (gu zheng and chinese drums) and Malay Instruments (tabla, cak lempong, gamelan, malay drums and winds) mix together..

I never regret watching this performance..
I really enjoy myself in the music..
although it lasted for about 2 and a half hours? lol!

Indulging in the graceful music..

shut down

Gloomy morning when I was on the way to school..
Just like how I felt..
Darkness..
Had severe headache throughout the day..
A lot of things flashes through my mind..
and I just hope I could shut down myself for once..

Staring blankly......

Aware!

H1N1 in our campus? You gotta be kidding me..

but.. its true!

Yeap! I have the exactly same expression as you too!

Terrified and its traumatizing me...

Although its not confirmed cases,

everyone should start doing precaution before its too late...

Take care people!

I'm not myself..

I never felt like this before..


The emptiness in my mind..


I'm just...


lost..

Did that happen to you? Tagged by Theng

Yes Theng.. I actually did answer all these question due to boredness.. LOL!

Rules:
1. Answer the questions as honestly as possible.
2. Post this as "Did That Happen To You?"
3. Tag 10 friends.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have Fun!!!

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
err... smack it? = = then continue shower.

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
HMMM.. Depends on the mood... If I have the urge to sing.. well.. I'll sing like nobody's business XD

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line?
err... hi =) HAHAHA..

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
I don't care =)

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
*Oops*.. You stupid rock! make me trip!

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework..
Apparently teacher don't really check homework.. BUT.. still will do it during other teacher's class *shhhhhh*

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
Drink a lot of water before he or she starts to speak = =

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
What can I do besides wearing it = = if not.. will feel very cold..

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
Hmmm.. Will ask my friends and see whether I need to correct myself or not =)

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
OF COURSE I DO!!! AIYA... Its ok... You don't have to bring me a present.. as long as you are present =)

(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
I shall.... give it to the orphanage =)

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
Hot guy - yer.. anything on my face? Hmm.. hot guys are usually not trustworthy... slap him if he still looking = =
Hot girl - I know la.. not good than you.. don't have to keep looking = = scratch your face then you know! ( yerr.. since when I become so evil a.... XD hahaha.. )

i'm going to tag: Chi Yee, Er Yuin, Suet Yoong, Ashlea, Audrey, Ju Vern, Jun Kiat, Coddy, Hui Jing & Andy =)

A place in this world

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
'Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, im just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's okay

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world
Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
But I'm ready to fly
I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
Oh, I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Random

herm..
Recently, I have no appetite at all when comes to lunch and dinner...
Its making me to feel sick and feeling like throwing up when the food is in front of me...
MY GOD!
AM I GETTING ANOREXIA NERVOSA............
great..

depressing day.....